It's been a long time since I've used my DiS blog but this is the only blog I've ever used and there's stuff I really want to write in a place where people can read it if they're interested, but without the self-indulgence of starting a thread about it or the difficulty of actually trying to express this stuff in a conversation.

It seems crazy that at a time when I'm wrestling with 2 of the biggest and hardest decisions I'll ever make, I'm happier than I've ever been before. Basically I'm in the second year of my course, I've got less work this year than I will ever have again until I retire, and I just want to take risks and make the most of everything life has to offer me. I've got some great friends and some good friends, and it seems like I'm meeting new people all the time, some of them amazing. The last 48 hours have been an incredible blur of fun and happiness and I lay awake from 3 to 6 am last night feeling more intense emotions than I can ever remember.

2005 was not a great year at all, and 2006 was sort of a year of recovery that got better the longer it went on. I made a bunch of resolutions in my head at the start of this year and I genuinely think 2007's going to be the best year of my life so far. I've come so far from where I was two years ago; I actually feel really good in myself for once and I'm really determined to take every opportunity to meet people and be involved in as much as I can. Realising that you're living through the best times of your life is a feeling that's both exhiliarating and terrifying.

Of course, no matter how good life is there'll always be times when I feel down about something. When I do, I hope that reading this back will help me put things into context (which I've never really been good at doing).

In short, I feel young and alive and like anything is possible if I want it badly enough. I think I'm on the cusp of a brilliant time and I don't want to miss out.