and weeping about my inadequacies as a human being on pavement or walk home.

instead of attending 'middle of nowhere' festival in northampton. cos i am in love with ronnie o'sullivan.

who are rubbish at a pub and missing new peep show in the process. Oh well 4oD will save the day.

as they are awesome live.

I don't really know the person who's hosting it, so it could be really weird and intimidating. Free booze though, winner.

Not sure what after that. Is there any good club nights on in London tonight?

and steal her bicycle. does one listen to music when cycling or is that bad? if i don't do that then i will walk home and sleep. well i was going to walk, but now that it is wet and miserable i might not.

until my eyes bleed and my hands shake too much to hold the controller any longer.

and then shopping for birthday stuff for my stepbrother

Kings Cross.

train to manchester
drinks
chrome hoof/gay against you gig
train to leeds
friend's birthday breakcore houseparty (arriving at 3am-ish - there will only be chaos left :(((( oh noes)
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

URGHHHHHHHH

I don't want to go though. After the drama that was last night, I'm fed up of certain people and I just want to relax and not listen to the arguments anymore. :(

haven't seen Pete in ages.

but the decent people are busy working, being ill or going for a drive with her boyfriend.

and watching her pack for herself... trying my best not to drink wine.. get an early night, avoid The Dolphin and get up early for my music course which is going all day Sat and Sun.

I really want to leave NOW.